Things have been busy as always but I’m hoping that they calm down a bit before Christmas. Actually, who the hell am I kidding? That’s not going to happen. Once I finish one personal web project, another one starts. I work all day and then all night to the point where I’m utterly exhausted. My norm is going to bed at 1:30 and then I stagger into work the next to start the cycle again. But what really gets me is that even though I complain, even though I haven’t seen friends in months I absolutely love what I’m doing. I love that I get to create websites. I am in heaven when I’m problem solving, trying to figure out ways to give the client what they want. I love learning, I love..well I love my job.
It’s making me sad, however, that I haven’t seen the people I really care about. I haven’t seen Kirstin’s new baby, Autumn, I haven’t seen Celeste since her fabulous art show, I can’t even remember the last time I saw Kim, who sent me a letter that Gary accidentally took with him to work, my parents and sisters likely won’t see me until Christmas. I’m so lucky that I have friends that know I love them even though I’ve become a bit of a recluse. I’m feeling isolated but I actually feel good about it in some bizarre way. It’s hard to explain but there are times in my life when I need to be cut off. I need my time alone to rejuvenate. I can’t handle having plans every weekend. I’ve always been a bit of a loner and this is one of the major differences between Gary and I. He’s a social butterfly and while I love our friends there are times when I don’t want to be “on”. There are some Saturday’s or Sunday’s where I don’t want to get out of my grubby pants or put on make up or even take a shower. Gary is OK with that, and often he’ll go out with friends while I stay at home surrounded by my own filth.
It’s a good compromise.
I only hope that come the end of November the one project I’m working on will be completed, and I’ll even have Gary’s store up and running with his first T-shirt design which is going to be pretty damn sweet. My plan is to have a whole weekend where I don’t work and Gary doesn’t have plans so that we can just stay in bed and watch bad horror movies. We will order in, sneak out the back to take the dog for a walk and then crawl back into bed. The phone will be turned off and no one else will exist for those two days.
